Laid off

This has been my mantra lately because a week ago today, I was laid off from my job. The company that I worked for had been telling us that there were big changes coming, that they were in the process of restructuring the company, and that a reduction in staff would be made. At first I thought I was safe, but the more I heard about what they were doing, the more I knew deep down that I would be one of many to go. I had told a few people at work that I had a feeling it would be me, and they all said no way. So when I got that tap on the shoulder to go in the back with my manager and the HR lady, I instantly burst into tears. On my walk to the back, I looked at those people that I had talked to and mouthed "I told you it would be me" to them. One of those people was my best friend Kyla and she burst into tears too. The whole office was crying. My manager bawled right along with me as they explained my severance package and they assured me it was not performance based, just something that needed to be done in order to cut costs. In other words, I was making too much money for the position I was in and it would save them a lot more money to get rid of me and hire a new person to do my job for less than half of what I made. Horrible but true! Let's be honest, I did not like my job and I was very unhappy. However, I needed that job, truly needed it. So the reason I bawled my eyes out wasn't because I loved my job and was sad to lose it, I was freaking out because how am I supposed to pay my bills now? We lived paycheck to paycheck before so now, there will be things that won't get paid because we flat out won't have the money. Unemployment doesn't even pay half of what you normally made, and my severance package will only last us so long. So I am on the hunt for a new job, I started as soon as I got home last Tuesday. So my fingers are crossed, lot's of prayers are being said and I am hopeful that I will soon find myself in a job that truly utilizes my talents and sees the potential that I have.

So as I wait for the next door to open, I ask you-my friends and blog family, to say a little prayer for me that something fabulous comes my way. I know in the long run, this will truly be a blessing in disguise and everything will work out for me. I am hopeful and know that God works in mysterious ways and He has a reason for everything He does, whether we get to see it right away or maybe never at all.