Broken Hearted

It's funny that 2 out of my last 3 posts were about my job and 2 of my most favorite events.  It's funny or ironic?  More like sad and depressing and unbelievable.  Those are the things that I have been feeling since the end of June.  I thought I would be safe from losing my job because of the Corona Virus but I was clearly wrong.  In March, I started out working from home full time and then I worked 50% from home and 50% in another department.  And then I worked 50% from home and was furloughed 50%.  On June 22, I was told that my position and my department were being eliminated and that I no longer had a job.  My whole world came crashing down around me.  This was the worst possible thing I could imagine.  I LOVED MY JOB.  I gave my heart and soul, blood, sweat and tears to that job.  I planned to work at the job for the rest of my life.  But what hurt more were the lies that came about after all of this happened.  People who were supposed to be my friends hurt me in ways that I never thought possible.  I won't go into details because I don't want to get political but what was done to me and 2 of my co-workers during this whole thing is a complete act of reverse discrimination and back stabbing.  Honestly, I want nothing more to do with that college ever again and it's the college that I graduated from and spent 13 years of my life at.  If karma is a thing, I hope everyone involved in what they did to me gets what they deserve.

I have a new job and I hate it.  I took the first job that I was offered.  It was the highest paying job that I was offered.  It's a retail job so I have to work Saturday's and holiday's.  I am better than this job but for now it is what it is.  I am currently looking for another job at a different college and I am hoping and praying that I get it.  I don't want to work retail.  I just smile and pretend that I am happy but I am the complete opposite of that!  

It breaks my heart that I am no longer doing the job that I love.  No longer will I share the holiday party theme and decor with you.  There will be no more scholarship gala posts.  I have never been in such a low, dark place in my life but I am hopeful that things will get better eventually.  Please say a prayer for me that things get better and that I am happy, doing what I love soon.